I need to put things in perspective.
What if boy and I broke up, have I let him in too much?
Have I already built myself around him subconciously?
I had a really good day going to work with him today, we went everywhere, and far away to places I would never have had gone to otherwise, whcih was fun, the light was back in my eyes.
What if that ends?
I need to know I am still me, I need to take my own advice that I gave sophie, If you stay true to yourself and do all the things you wanted to do all the while in the relationship, and are content and happy with who you are, then you wont feel so torn if/when it ends..