im being a big bitch tonight and i just dont know why.
i assumed that he wasnt continuing his cutting back of cigaretes because he wasnt wearing a nicabate patches. i didnt even believe him when he said he was using the gum.
that was totally rude. no wonder hes being defensive and moody now. no faith lucy, no faith.
i made a bery bold addmission to james tonight, we talked a lot about love and what it is and how do you know what TYPE of love you feel for a person. it was a very helpful conversation. just ro even get the word out to james, when i have been holding it in for weeks, avoiding the word.
Very confused and angry at myself tonight.
